yo: shit i did today that i actuall....
decisions i made.
i'm going to drink later. beers. not too many.
not going to call her: not ready for a r/s, don't want to trigger the "r/s 'mechanism'" (more than one or two hangouts a week = r/s feelings, don't do it if you don't want that :)
going to "do my work" for at least a couple more hours today, maybe more tomorrow: i feel like neo when he was "a machine" of learning, at first in the matrix, with all the kung-foo stuff he was "uploading." (my work i've dubbed "attraction science," just a couple seconds ago --- my new anthropological focus as a ishmael-reader/world-saver ;)
going to get another cup of coffee.
already placed some more orders, gave up on/accepted my debit card "reality" (i collected loose dollars and spare change from peeps around downtown and eastside mall a couple weeks ago to a) get my liscence reinstated ($47), b) take that "second form of id" to the bank and open a new account, and c) take my instant "temp" debit card to the uni library computer lab and finally purchase the ebook "Double Your Dating" (hereafter sometimes "DYD").
and then i made another order that same day or the next or sth.
and then i made another from another website.
and then another.
all "free trials."
so then i cancelled most of 'em.
but this one wouldn't seem to let me cancell,
and i realized the truth:
i have no intention of paying....
there's no way that account's staying in the black.
so then i developed a case of what's known technically as the "fuck it"s, and placed a bunch more zero money down and $1 instant download products, basically getting the "best of the best" of all the PUA, seduction, socio-psychologicalllly bla bla bla MAKE-MY-FUCKING-LIFE-BETTER, become-a-leader, become a real man, learn how human's work, save-the-world -----
------bullshit -----
---- so that's me. today was the last ordering fest, cuz i finally admitted to myself that i don't care about ever being solvent again, i just care about what i care about, and if i never get a line of credit again from any other bank in the universe, i'm fine with that, i have my own plans, and they don't involve any permissions from the financial sectors, the govt, or even the economy.
the economy of money, that is.
the economies of SERVICE, however, are different.
but i serve today?
nope.
not directly.
but i do need to get back to Dr. Paul's "Mind OS" stuff, so that i can DEVELOPE into a mature, masculine, person of power, service, and leadership (who, yeyasss, draws the hot hos like a fucking magnet (yes, yes: by honoring and serving them too, and disempowing the words that people use to hurt them, etc :)))
so that's my "decision log" for today.
we'll see what i decide to do tomorrow :P
ps: did you know that just ONE of the "Free Trial" ebooks i'm about to list could quite possibly completely change your life? no shit: i've found THREE sources that i think are likely AWAKENERS. i consider us basically "The Culture of The COMA", in my personal shorthand. and i've dedicated my life to waking, finding help waking, waking others, waking further, and waking more and more deeply (yeah: the "coma" is kinda like an ONION, layers and stuff).
i think all three have "free" trials if you google around for the special links, and i think even if you choose one to just go ahead an buy, they're either $20 bucks or $30 bucks, and they're just three different formats of the same new science anyway...... a whole new way of thinking.
this is my job an anthropologist from MARS. what that means of course is not literal, it means that i am like a guy who was sent from a foreign civilization somewhere far, far away to study a planet that has been taken over by a culture of a species. that culture calls itself "civilization," and apparently began in the middle east about 10, maybe 12-thousand years ago.
and of course this culture is interesting because it's the most rational, logical, and scientific culture this particular planet has ever known.
a very advanced culture of a very advanced species.
....that systematically destroys it's host-planet.
worthy of study, no?
so yeah: that's my job --- student of "us", student of our "culture."
i'll explain more later.
sign up for a newsletter.
buy an ebook. i'm pretty sure in all three cases you can JUST buy the ebook, make that single payment, and not be signed up for ANYTHING else, ever.
it's amazing how intellectually explosive finding a new door can be.
love, love, love:
-me
google:
"CATCH HIM AND KEEP HIM", authored to one Christian Carter,
"BECOME A MODERN SIREN", authored to this Rori Something chick,
or
"Double Your Dating," by a guy called David DeAngelo.
pppppppqsr:
DYD is dave's "base" book. and i think it's HIS principles and largely HIS thinking that's behind the other two books (and probably A LOT of other stuff out there).
it's complicated.
you know how professors and lots of other people will have their names on a lot of stuff they DIDN'T REALLY WRITE/PRODUCE/SCULPT/ETC.????
did you know that some of the most FAMOUS artists, some of those da-vince/michaelangelo -type guys
DIDN'T EVEN MAKE THEIR OWN ART?????
it's true. i think what was common for sculptors was to make a small MODEL.
and then lackys did the full-size stuff, the real labor.
so this is kinda the OPPOSITE.
Eben Pagan, pen-name "David DeAngelo," has come up with certian powerful new ideas i'm obsessively hoping to start helping spreading, in my own very transparent way,
and then, it seems, i theorize, let OTHERS run with them.
so i think that's what happened. i think david d. is smart enough to let others carry the flag, add their "details" and use THEIR personal experience, in COORDINATION with "deangeloian" principles and "Dr. Paul"-ian science,
to produce "products" of new thinking that simply wouldn't spread as fast if they weren't being commercially sold.
GOOD LUCK!!!!!!
